Struggling youth

I've just discovered a great answer on Quora on the question of "What does it feel like to be really old knowing that death is imminent?"

I am too young to think about this question, however that does not prevent from rethinking what my life has become comparing what I expect it to be. Good things happened, bad things happened, and mostly nothing happened. The last thing scares me.

I can't remember how many times I tried to start a blog and told myself that I was going to keep writing no matter what. After a while, everything back to usual.

My life was like a pond of water peaceful like an mirror, while I expect it to be a place filled with storms and hurricanes. There are always two voices in my mind. One tells me to keep calm and carry on whatever I was doing, don't change. While the other one cuts me with its little knife of vision and ambition, pointing the places where others have been or are trying to go. Often the case, I compromise to the reality because I am afraid of changing my habit or my slow pace of life and work.

Will the imminent death change everything?

Read Quote of Stan Hayward's answer to What does it feel like to be really old knowing that death is imminent? on Quora